Genre: New Adult Contemporary/Romance
Recommended Age: 18+ (mature scenes, some gore, trigger warnings for rape and depression)
These were all the things that you would expect from being famous. The bait that the producers of the industry would tempt you with to get you on their side.
What they don’t tell you though are all the inner tragedies that come along just as quickly. They don’t tell you about the heartache that occurs when you realize that this wasn’t what you wanted at all.
They don’t tell you about the pressure that’s always on the verge of crushing you when you’re forced to do everything that the public demands for and not what you truly desire.
They don’t tell you about the self hatred that would soon take over your entire being at the thought that you will never be good enough.
No – they don’t tell you these things at all.
But, Lilith Rose will.
When Lilith Rose, lead singer to one of the most famous rock bands around gets tired of all the lies and secrets that comes with being famous.
She decides that it’s time for all of it to stop and ends up revealing everything on a Facebook live stream.
“Part of me wants to die tonight, part of me wants it to be an accident, and part of me wants someone to notice and save me.” – Lilith Rose. – Amazon.com
If you had everything, would you be truly happy? This is one of the many questions Lil asks herself on a daily basis. She has everything but the one thing she truly wants and she’s being kept away from it. Depression and suicidal ideation takes control and what unfolds is a this book. This book is a tragic yet hopeful story on one girl’s spiral and triumph out of depression. It has a good plot point that needs to be written about more and the pacing was well done. The writing is also easy to follow and understand and the writing style fits the book.
However, I did have some concerns about this book. I felt that the characters weren’t very well developed and that only when you continued to read the book did you understand the personalities of the characters and what the characters looked like. I felt that overall the book could have focused more on Lil’s depression and there could have been more issues that made her depressed then just that she wasn’t allowed to be with Alec. I also felt that the book should have focused on the depressive and suicidal episode rather than just have that be the opening. I was output by some of the things that went on after the first half of the book and I felt very angry that those things happened. I don’t want to spoil anything on here for those that do want to read the book, but if you DM me I’ll tell you what made me angry.
Verdict: The book is good. It’s a sweet romance story and it makes you think about depression and suicide in a way that only Thirteen Reasons Why only has for me, but I think that the book should have focused on the depression and the suicidal event and had some of the later half of the book shortened. I think this book can be a good resource for those who want an inside look into what depression and suicide looks like. And while I have been where Lil has been and I’ve thought the same as Lil did, I didn’t feel a connection with her. However, I do think this book is good and that people who like contemporary reads and those who are okay with reading about material like this.